The underlying story ofThe Father's Love paints a picture of self pity
vs. new beginnings... utter darkness vs. colorful rainbows... denied truths vs. great promises... and shows
that the finished product is ultimately the outcome of our own choice!
This story is dedicated to my nephew Michael and his wife, Beth, who where truly blessed with the gift of each other and
a beautiful little gift from above... as we also where blessed with the gift of each of them! God promises great things to
those who choose Him... I pray that through any and all obstacles, God's rainbow shines in your lives and truly comes to rest upon Sadie's pillow!
Written by: Barbara Ann Hall
Sadie Elizabeth’s laughter filled
my heart with joy; the little girl who entered my life one beautiful September’s day. Her eyes sparkled with life and
it was quite obvious that she was filled with the spirit of her Father. She was indeed the expressed image of His love in
all its’ glory!
I sat watching her play, I wished deep down inside that I was young and fresh and new again, knowing the love of God, as I
do now. But I knew I could not turn back the hands of time. For a moment, I felt sorry for myself, for all I had missed out
on and all I had forever lost.
However, that moment of self pity quickly passed as Sadie’s laughter once
again tickled my ears. She ran over to me and gave me a big hug, “I love you Aunt Barbara!” she exclaimed in her
angelic little voice. “I love you too Sadie Elizabeth!” I told her as I brushed the little curls back off her
She popped up on my lap and asked me to sing her a song. “Sing me the song about how much God loves
meee, Aunt Barbara!” Sadie asked in her own sing-songy little way as she twirled my hair around her chubby little fingers.
Although she had probably heard the amature little song I wrote for her the day she was born about a million and one times
over the past three years of her life, she never tired of it.
“Jesus loves Sadie la la la la la..."
Sadie’s eyes glistened like
snow-flakes on Christmas Eve, “Sing it again! Pleeease, Aunt Barbara! Sing it again!” Of course, I did sing it
again, and again, and again, before tucking her into bed that evening. “Now tell me Sadie, who loves you?” I asked
her after we were done saying our prayers. “Jesus loves meee!” she sang happily “Good girl!” I told
her as I kissed her smiling little cheeks goodnight before she quickly drifted off to sleep.
As I sat on the edge
of her bed watching her rest peacefully, I thanked God for her. I was thankful that out of all the people He had put in my
path over the years, He chose Sadie Elizabeth as my predestined mission. God promised me long before she was born that He
would send me a child to nurture in His love. A child who otherwise would never know her great worth in Him, a knowledge that
would blossom from a little seed planted deep within her heart from childhood.
I did not know what God had planned
for Sadie, but I was certain that it was something special, something grand and full of glory! I did all I could to assure
her that she was loved and valued, not only by her family, but also by her Heavenly Father.
I prayed that she would
never have to experience the mixed emotions that I struggled with at times in my life; feeling little to no worth, as a woman,
within the will of God. But despite those emotional set backs, God’s will prevailed, because He successfully rescued
me out of that bondage by cutting the chains of manmade limitations and misunderstood scripture. “Father, please bless
Sadie according to your will and keep her forever safe and nurtured in the palm of your hand. As she grows I pray that she
grows in faith, and wisdom and all understanding in you and that above all else, she loves the truth of your Word. I pray
that there is not one day in her precious life that she does not bask in the warmth of your love. I know you hold something
very special for her Father, and for that I am deeply grateful. I pray also for her mom and dad. That you bless and nurture
them and guide them, in all your will and as parents. I ask this believing in you and I lift up all praise and Glory in your
precious name; Jesus!”
Not wanting to leave Sadie’s bedside, in case she awoke, I eventually dozed
off in her special teddy bear chair, as she called it, that sat in the corner of her room and held three little bears, which
at that moment sat upon my lap.
Despite the fact that I was cramped and slightly uncomfortable, I experienced
that night what I call my unimaginable gift from God! As I slept there in that tiny little chair in Sadie’s little pink
room, God choose to bless me far beyond anything I could have ever thought to ask of Him! By painting images upon my soul,
as if it were a blank canvas, He showed me what life would be if I had never come to know Him!
First He painted
the canvas a bright yellow, providing me with a sense of warmth and security. Then He added a rainbow of colors; reds, oranges,
various shades of yellows, greens, blues, and purples! That magnificent rainbow filled me with contentment and happiness,
as it’s every color burned bright within me! It was breathtakingly beautiful!
God then added strokes of
white throughout the rainbow, and I was made to know that they symbolized all the people that He put in my path along our
journeys together; for my hands as His own, to reach them. They were the completion of His painting, as if the completion
of my own soul.
He allowed me to remain there, basking in His love, for several moments. I drank it in, absorbing
every color deep down within my soul, which brought me an overwhelming sense of freedom and life!
As I stood there
overwhelmed by the experience, God put his hand gently upon my shoulder, bringing me out of the trance like state I was in.
When I was once again aware of my surroundings, darkness began to cover the rainbow, as if dusk had fallen, casting an eerie
shadow upon its once radiant colors, quickly turning them a dismal gray, and causing me to feel overwhelmingly sad, lonely
and utterly helpless.
I wanted to reach for God, but I could no longer feel Him. Then I tried reaching for
the people I had once helped for the glory of His name, anyone, but my every attempt failed, as if each was erased from the
picture upon the touch of my hand. Then, in a moment’s time, complete darkness fell around me, the last strokes upon
the canvas being of pitch black, blotting out that once radiant rainbow and smothering my every emotion. I felt evil surround
me; the complete absence of God from my life.
As I sat there lost in utter darkness, I could not understand why
anyone would deny the Lord and choose instead this dreadful existence of lonely, helpless isolation. I bowed my head and prayed
for all the lost souls who knew Him not. All the souls who where blind to His brilliant light and radiant colors that could
so easily take the place of dismal grays and the pitch black that colored their souls. Too, I prayed for myself and I cried
out, “LORD! PLEASE! DON’T LEAVE ME HERE ALONE!
He didn’t answer me. My body trembled as I thought
of what my life would be without Him. My loneliness intensified. Is this what people feel who do not know the love of our
Father? I crumbled to the floor and wept for them; wept for myself. “LORD! I cried out again, “I CAN’T LIVE
MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU!”
I felt warmth upon my shoulders and when I lifted my head Jesus stood before me in
all His glory and said full of compassion, yet surprisingly simply, as he outstretched His hand for me, “Then live it
with me Barbara.” When I reached my hand towards His, joy instantly filled my heart, my spirit and my soul! What an
honor for God to grant me the privilege to live my life for Him… with Him! A privilege He grants us all. Who are we
that the Lord should be mindful of us? Yet He is!
I awoke with the morning sunlight shining in my eyes through
Sadie’s bedroom window. When my eyes adjusted to the brightness, I couldn’t believe what I saw! A magnificent
rainbow of radiant colors stretching from far beyond the horizon to the very pillow that Sadie’s little curly head rested
upon! I fell to my knees in awe, my heart full of gratefulness and love for my Heavenly Father!
LOOK… LOOK! GOD USED MY CRAYONS TO COLOR MY ROOM!” Sadie exclaimed as she opened her beautiful little eyes. I
couldn’t help but laugh aloud when I saw her crayons scattered on the floor right where I had knelt! “Yes Sadie,
He most certainly did! He colored that rainbow just for you as a special gift of His love!” At that moment I realized
it! That was God’s special seed planted deep inside Sadie’s heart! A moment in her early childhood that she would
remember her whole life through to remind her of the Father’s love for her!
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